Lost amongst the daily chores, miss my space. Will be back real quick.. :)

My obsession with Laddakh and Leh!

Ever since I have seen Lakshya, I have been in love with the place. The love has only been growing and now has come to the point of obsession.Wanna see myself on those trails and mountains soon. I am just dying to go out and ride hard. :)

CATastrophe- My date with CAT '09 !

My bad I wrote the test on 29th. Never had a clue tat test was easy. My mistake was I kept respecting the paper thinking the next section is gonna be a li'l tougher and in the end could attempt only 38. I think one thing that people in most of the forums are failing to point out regarding this year's CAT is that people have gone in with a lot more aggressive attitude after initial 3 days of exams and they never under went the trauma which the poor one's who wrote early went through of what the LOD of the test is going to be. I know it was up to an individual to pick the slot but being rational enough, we must understand that it wasn't the "Level Playing Field", as the IIM authorities mentioned it. Regarding my experience on the test day. It was a pleasant experience for me, with so much of hype of the high profile test failing to deliver, somehow our personal tensions pertaining to exam vanished. The authorities at the center were co-operative after the kind of attention they had received country wide a day before. The only issue I had was that I was waiting for their signal to look at the tutorial which unfortunately they din't and waved directly to take the exam. I also managed to click the end button couple of times during the test which left my heart in mouth. I am all for re-test because I feel it has somehow been unfair to all of us. We all know deep down somewhere that this wasn't the CAT we were preparing for months. This wasn't even level of MAT which we poke so much fun off but again that is my opinion.

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The Adventitious ME !

Accidents are bound to happen in life, especially in a life like the one I endorse, where things are so much dependent on probability. Never ever I had thought that a meager chapter on mathematics I studied (again adventitiously) would define life of an individual. That too, happening by chance, my own. After having contemplated on "What defines my life?" for long hours, it's hard to put it any other way. I think it's been so erratic and frivolous that though I have a picture in my mind it's hard to put it on canvass. This revelation has baffled me and left me distressed and the only positive I could take from it is that it has just brought me a li'l closer to myself. I have started to understand myself a li'l better then I actually did before. How does this help me anyway? Well, I have a firm belief that everyone is born to to give something back to the society. I just happen to be pondering over what could that be in my case?

Life or something like it..

What is life? Not the one you and me or a person next door are living. It's not the topping, but the deeper shit I am talking about.

Right from the schooling days we are grilled,to get into a decent school (entrances to get into 1st grade.. WTF?), then to secure a rank in class, write an entrance again to get into a coaching where we are left aghast,pondering over the knowledge 'junta' around possesses. Somehow make it to some engineering college, without actually having to deal with a chip in life we become an engineer by mugging every inch of words written by millman and some ass who probably didn't have lives of their own (or may be he did) :D . Sums up life of an average Indian adult.

Where is the room for my creativity,my decisions,my life?If I ask myself a question, "what do I want from my life", I am left scratching my balls pondering..Ehh.. Errr.. Pause... what the hell is that suppose to mean. My life.. decision..??? Everything in life has been spoon fed, everything's been taught as if, this is the way thing is, mug up if you can or come back after six months. I remember it very well, when in 1st or 2nd grade, I made a drawing of a house and painted it's wall black and had my teacher fuming for the reasons I didn't know then. Obviously, I never dared to do anything innovative in her class again. It was then, that I wasn't allowed to take my own decision. Over and over in life, similar incidences have happened again and again and again.I feel so feeble and drained now that I wish, I could change it, so that I could have my controls back in my hand.Today at this juncture in life, I feel I have lost the most gifted ability given to a man. Power to create. Power to do my thing. The one which I want to do, over and over again till I am left enervated. Let the energies actuate the cause is all I can wish. These few lines by kishore da explain the conundrum so well..


"Saahilon pe rehne waale.. kabhi sunaa to hogaa kahin.. Saagaron ki kashtiyon ka kahin kinaara hotaa nahin.. "

Signing off!

Sublime !

linkin park - numb piano

Talking Sense..

I cannot understand why we idle discussing religion. If we are honest—and scientists have to be—we must admit that religion is a jumble of false assertions, with no basis in reality. The very idea of God is a product of the human imagination. It is quite understandable why primitive people, who were so much more exposed to the overpowering forces of nature than we are today, should have personified these forces in fear and trembling. But nowadays, when we understand so many natural processes, we have no need for such solutions. I can't for the life of me see how the postulate of an Almighty God helps us in any way. What I do see is that this assumption leads to such unproductive questions as why God allows so much misery and injustice, the exploitation of the poor by the rich and all the other horrors He might have prevented. If religion is still being taught, it is by no means because its ideas still convince us, but simply because some of us want to keep the lower classes quiet. Quiet people are much easier to govern than clamorous and dissatisfied ones. They are also much easier to exploit. Religion is a kind of opium that allows a nation to lull itself into wishful dreams and so forget the injustices that are being perpetrated against the people. Hence the close alliance between those two great political forces, the State and the Church. Both need the illusion that a kindly God rewards—in heaven if not on earth—all those who have not risen up against injustice, who have done their duty quietly and uncomplainingly. That is precisely why the honest assertion that God is a mere product of the human imagination is branded as the worst of all mortal sins.

-By Paul Dirac while discussing with Heisenberg.